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Do you remember when you were little and your best friend told you she didn't want to be friends anymore? It hurts like something was nesting on your heart and had clawed its way into your soul. There is an childish elegance to the sadness that you assumed only existed for grown ups when they talk about grown up things. In the glorious contant of humanity, the existence of her will corrode and become a faded memory that you will only remember when you hurt again.

And then you will lose your dog, your best friend, your confidant. It will happen suddenly and you will be left with nothing but the hole in your heart of a lost companion who you assumed would be around forever. You will learn at that moment that nothing true or pure lasts forever. A part of your innocence will die as you cradle your companion for the last time. If only you had goldfish and parents who lied to you about him instead.

You will think the worst is over, playgrounds will become a little less magical, danger will become a little more promising. You will be painfully aware of your parents, their presence, their laws. You will recognise how much of a dictatorship you live in. Mom is never around, Dad is out at sea, trying to keep food on the table. They're busy, they don't have time, except to tell you what to do. Study, become a lawyer, a doctor, play more sports, join a club. It will be a feat beyond humanity if you even remember what the playground looks like when they are done with you.

Eventually, you will learn to become used to that life and the rebellion will set in its ways. Until you see him. He'll wear the wrong socks and always have a smudge of dirt across his face. His tooth is almost out and he shakes it in his gums to gross everyone out. Everyone but you. He will smile at you like you're the only person in the world and call you Dolce, because his mother is obsessed with the word. And then, when you share your secret hideout and only bar of chocolate with him, he will refuse to look at you again. But it will ache most when he takes your best friend, the one who doesn't even understand that he loves those socks because they were his father's gift to him, to your secret hideout.

You will watch them together and remember the special cigarettes your older brother hid behind the broken part of the cabinet, the ones which always put him in such a good mood. And when you light it and cough so much your eyes water, you will understand that it is your soul bleeding through them, because it doesn't know why it is being poisoned. But you will take a deep breath and try again. And again. And again...

I promise. The next one will make you feel better. Just try one more. Go on.

They say that children are so resilient.

I have always wondered why.
Does anyone feel like the kids aren't all right when they call it all a part of growing up?
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A-Shadow-Rose Featured By Owner May 7, 2014  Hobbyist Writer
Perfect...just perfect.
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EnderMagic979 Featured By Owner Apr 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Really, really beautiful. 
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LianaPiper Featured By Owner Jan 15, 2014  Student General Artist
Heart  Love it.
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Yukai-yami Featured By Owner Dec 1, 2013
 Dumb blurry screen... My eyes didn't water! I swear they didn't!
....-faves-
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RainySkyz Featured By Owner Jul 20, 2013   Writer
I love this!
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summerday27 Featured By Owner Feb 10, 2013  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
I can relate so much. Losing a companion (my dog). Losing innocence. The whole first stanza. And you meet that boy, and he changes your thoughts. And you think he is something different but you loose him too. "But it will ache most when he takes your best friend, the one who doesn't even understand that he loves those socks because they were his father's gift to him, to your secret hideout." Especially this part. The guy i like, who's my best friend is dating my other friend. The whole piece, brings back a sorta, sad, melancholy, nostalgia. But it is beautiful nonetheless.
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Hazel-Fox Featured By Owner Aug 25, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful. <3 You managed to make me cry somehow.
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Reincarnators Featured By Owner Aug 11, 2012  Professional General Artist
so have i :)
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Thefreakinthecorner Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for letting me remember
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tiraluv Featured By Owner Jul 30, 2012
I was always one of those children who said "I'm okay" or "It's okay" whether I was screaming on the inside or not. Therefore, I stop and pay attention when a kid shows signs of a problem; if they're in the transitional stage or not. This makes me think of rocks that have gemstones in them. Through abuse, the cracks open up and the glimmers of breathtaking beauty show through. After that, everything marked by that stone has traces of unimaginable beauty. The more trials that the rock endures, the more lovely it is and some of us are tragically yet wonderfully gemstones all over with very little ordinary rock left. YOU are one of those hurt but beautiful people and as far as I can see, every thing you touch or create is breathtakingly wondrous. You were meant to walk a higher path than those of the ordinary stone and everyone knows that those of the higher path must endure much more. I, for one, appreciate the talented, skilled artist that your trials and triumphs have developed. :)
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Other5317 Featured By Owner Jul 5, 2012
Childhood was only the beginning.

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Why find the answers when it is so convenient to forget the question?
When the truth is merely a symptom of others' lies, what-to-do but seek a more pleasant lie?

Children are not resilient; they just have better imaginations.
Soon they will all be told that day-dreaming and wonder are inefficient acts of heresy.

One adapts as best as one can.
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CATSAREGREAT Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
This writing is perfect, it describes everything exactly as it is and I love this piece for that. Absolutely incredible writing.
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bringyourownbomb Featured By Owner Jun 15, 2012  Student Writer
there is so much painful truth in this, it really hurts. the images and the everything are all-too perfect. i just have to love this. <3
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xXxFallenDreamerxXx Featured By Owner Jun 11, 2012
Children are wonderful. It's during our childhood when certain events occur in our life that determine how we will be as we grow up. Some become amazing actors simply because their family was damned and dysfunctional from the moment they were born and they were forced to still act normal, weaving their lives around a thread of lies, forced onto them by the world. Some will grow up to wonder why exactly they belong in this world, and some might actually grow up with some ounce of normalcy. Some grow up to be spoiled with the world handed to them and then have their world come crashing down as they go out into the real word, and some have always had to work for themselves. I still wonder how, in some cases, they can still retain that childish gleam in their eyes.
Anyways, wonderful piece of writing as usual. You continue to inspire me to keep writing and living, through all pieces of your work. Thank you. :hug:
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LightOverpowers58 Featured By Owner May 29, 2012  Student Writer
They say children are resilient so that they don't have to face the truth.... Children can hurt just as much as adults, maybe more, innocence torn away can never be regained.
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Sabbatticus Featured By Owner May 27, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
The word natural is a misconception, in that few understand what it truly means. Death, failure, and loss are natural: i.e. part of the whole of life. They are needed elements that provide contrast to the greatest moments of life. Much as we hate it and seek to escape it, there would be no success, happiness or wonder with out the darker things inherent to our world. Wonder is impossible without ignorance, failure tempers our resolve to lead us to future success, and pain tears away the false conceptions that will ultimately destroy us. Western thought regards these things as bad but without them life is truly pointless. All things are born/created, live/exist, and ultimately die/are destroyed. This is true of people, animals, governments, mountains, and even stars. You and I would not be here were it not so. Accept it, embrace it, and move on.
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Thorneborne Featured By Owner May 27, 2012
Life is nothing unless we can learn to numb others pain; if we do that then we are far to wondrous to consider our own.
The world is crafted out of such sad, slippery slopes is it not?
They go downward, but if we can be that odd , determined child that climbs up slides then it will be worthwhile...
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iNeph Featured By Owner May 26, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is painfully true. ;~; I personally haven't experienced it, but still. It reaches out. I had a happy childhood. Sometimes, I wish I could go back to the age of like 4, and enjoy that kind of innocent happiness again...
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Sana-girl Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
This is so true. I think that a lot of people, once adults, forget that it's so hard for children. They call it a "stage" or a "phase" and say that we'll grow out of it eventually, but they dont take it seriously enough when things happen. Things that can leave very deep scars, even though they may seem trivial to others.

Wonderfully written and one of the truest thing's I've read in a long time.
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Maerd7733SCAIP Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
So beautifully tragic :( The sad part is, pretty much everything ecxept the smoking part has happened to me ^^;
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for sharing such an intimate part of your life. I am sorry this happened to you. :(
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Maerd7733SCAIP Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Heh ^^; It made me a little bit stronger, so in the end, I'm kind of grateful for it :shrug: :)
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Ilnoitra Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Growing up is your body changing, slowly dying is what happens when you feel pain
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Your words are honest and brutal. :( It is very true.
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Ilnoitra Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
But yet, the more pain we feel the better a person we become
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Blissful-Day-Dreamer Featured By Owner May 24, 2012  Student Writer
We grow up too fast, in a completely different way to our parents and theirs before.

I want to be 6-and-a-half again :(
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
We do. :( I want to be 6 and a half again too. :( Only the six and a half when my mother wasn't around.
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Blissful-Day-Dreamer Featured By Owner May 26, 2012  Student Writer
You are cursed, my dear, with the misfortunes only the darkness of life can throw at us.

I hope that you at least have happy days..? hah
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VintageChick121 Featured By Owner May 24, 2012  Student Writer
This is sad and painful. But true... You wrote this very well.
For that, I will favorite it.
Excellent work :)
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you. :hug: You are very kind to say that and to fave this. I appreciate it. :)
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mintybreeze Featured By Owner May 24, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
Growing up is a painful process. It has always been so. But we may start to forget about what was truly pure in the first place as the pain numbs us...
As usual i really love your works , it carries so much emotion and relatability to it.
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you, my beautiful breath of fresh air. :glomp:
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AliceTerrarium Featured By Owner May 24, 2012  Professional Traditional Artist
We live in a poisoned world, all we can do is try and help these little souls to live through it all.

Beautiful words. :heart:
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
We do. :( I wish we preserved innocence better.
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w-anderlust Featured By Owner May 23, 2012  Student Writer
I understand completely.
As a teenager.
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
:hug:
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w-anderlust Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Student Writer
:hug:
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Krusnik03 Featured By Owner May 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This carries so much feeling, and people can really relate. This is just wonderful. :)
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Thank you for always being so supportive about my work. :hug:
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Krusnik03 Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
It's very easy to be supportive of such wonderful work. ^^
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creativityrunsdeep Featured By Owner May 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
<sub<oh gosh this is so beautifully written <3 and this is so easy to relate to as well, i especially love the second and third paragraph <3
playgrounds will become a little less magical, danger will become a little more promising.
i'm jealous
how are things?
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
That was my favourite line to write. :)

Thank you for supporting this! I'm good, how are you??
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creativityrunsdeep Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
You're welcome <3
That's good, and I'm doing well thanks for asking
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rebeccapark9 Featured By Owner May 23, 2012
they always seem to imply that it's good but nostalgic thing
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I wish they didn't. :(
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PartyCola Featured By Owner May 23, 2012
Love it. Very beautiful. Especially like the part about the socks
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Awww...:hug: Thank you. I had fun writing this. Its perspective and hindsight is always twenty twenty. :)
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jintsuuriki Featured By Owner May 23, 2012
i guess there's probably not a single person alive who hasn't been hurt in one way or another on this planet. I guess learning how to deal with is is growing up, though life ain't fair so some people get an unusual amount off hurt showered upon them. I wish there was a way to make it more even so everyone could share in loss and happiness.
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UntamedUnwanted Featured By Owner May 25, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
You are right. There should be a way where we can balance out the world in loss and unhappiness. :(
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Waldo-Butters Featured By Owner May 23, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I'm still the little kid I was. Except I now realize that anvils don't materialize in mid-air and crush coyotes. And if they do, I REGRET NOTHING!!!
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